30 things about me

I'll keep editing till the number reaches 30

1. The name and url adress of this blog

The name 'Gribouille' is the name that I always use for my persona (except for Mr.3rdBaseinSosa, used in some communities). Actually, this name originates from old nickname of Ha Hyeon Woo, band Guckkasten's lead vocalist. As a big fan of the band, I searched for the meaning of the word, and I found that the meaning of this French word is 'an idiot (noun)' or 'to scrawl (verb).' I completely loved this meaning, since I think my writings as a mere 'scribble' and myself as only an 'idiot,' and I also think that incompleteness makes everything so beautiful. I first named my sub-account (for uploading some works, random thoughts, and my own shallow philosophy) as 'Gribouiller Nam,' and started to consider the word as beloved persona of mine.
The URL adress of this blog is 'philosophical fried chicken.' Because I'm sure that I will major humanities field in university and it's almost like a mathematical formula in Korea that humanities students will open their own fried chicken delivery shop after graduation, I gave this self-mocking name to my blog. But still, I think it would be great to open a chicken restaurant and name the menus after philosophers, such as 'Marx's proletariat revolution chicken' in extremely spicy chicken.

2. Personal Motto

The motto that I have on my Facebook timeline is 'This is our decision to live fast and die young.' I've never knew that the original phrase came from Sex Pistols and it is changed by MGMT, and I've never knew the context of this line when I first saw this sentence. I only have seen the caligraphy wandering in the internet, and I just loved how cool it sounded like. Regardless of how Sex Pistols or MGMT used this, I interpret this phrase by my own, in the meaning of 'don't be old and obsolete, keep the pace of your life fast to the progressing world, that I can die in young spirit.'
The other motto that I have is 'But perhaps I may be a bright light in this world; maybe I can dazzle the world for a second'. This is actually a lyric from '나의 사춘기에게 (To My Puberty)' of 볼빨간사춘기 (Bolbbalgan4), and is a motive that raises me up every moment.

3. Leftist

Maybe it would not be difficult to assume this from my motto including strong inclination toward progress, but certainly, I'm leftist. Maybe, one of the most 'left' one in the wave. I was raised by the parents who read progressive newspaper and vote for the most liberal party in the congress. Though, it was my deliberate decision to be a different kind of a leftist, a supporter of a Korean Green Party which doesn't even have a single seat in congress, and a socialist (not Lenin-Stalin-like socialism but neither an advocate of socialism ideology under capitalistic fundament) (but don't misunderstand me - I still don't think socialism can be possible before my death since the materialistic fundament of capitalism hasn't been developed well enough).

4. Activist

This is one of the flaws that I have, but I like to act at that exact moment, rather than just sitting down and saying something later. Also, I rather choose to be active even though I can be cold-hearted and quiet (in most occasions including minor conflicts among friends, I remain rather cynical or benign to avoid them). I lack patience when it's a problem of a society, I guess. I was the one who stood up and asked the former principal some questions in the morning assembly, and also the one who stood up against Mr. Seong Heon Jae's so-called 'apology' in another morning assembly. I just can't stand those illogic and unjust authoritarians. Those actions brought me such a poliarized appraisal among both students and teachers.
It's my concern that I may lose my power in speech due to those way too frequent rebels or I may be same with those authoritarians who force their opinions to others.

5. Baseball

Baseball is the reason I came to KMLA. I chose KMLA because there was a baseball field. No other reason, really. It was after a while that I realized it was KMLA that fitted me best. The only moment that I cried in front of many people was when our team lost in the state championship, when my error was one of the reasons that contributed to the defeat. While playing baseball, I become fully myself. That's because I like to play baseball with my brain. I am the one who order the shifts in defense formations and bring different tactics in practice games. I'm not that fast, but since I'm good at reading preparation motions and habits of pitchers, I'm one of the best in stealing base. Also, it's good that I can devote myself fully to my team. sliding catches, hook slidings, and hustle plays are nothing frightening compared to the benefit that single play can bring to our team. I was a captain of the team in the first semester of 11th grade, and it is one pride of me that I was always the last one to leave the field after all of the chores are done.
I was (and maybe is) a die-hard fan of Doosan Bears, but after some incidents that team administrations committed, I chose not to watch their game for at least a year.

6. Music

Music is another pillar of my life. a fourth of my bookshelf is filled with albums that I bought. It's one of my humble philosophy to pay the right price for music's worth. That's the reason I buy physical albums or MP3 files, and the reason why I oppose to online music streaming.
My primary interest is Korean indie music industry. That affection toward the industry and the bands led my selection of a future dream of pop culture journalist. I hope music industry to be sustainable, and there won't be any artist who will die of hunger.
There are a number of bands that I really like, and I have written them in my Onedrive Word file. I hope someday you may hear those artists, or as a shortcut (but only brief part), I have my playlist in my Facebook timeline (yes, inspired by Avocado Choi).
https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=582784748753452&id=100010657956186
Without those indie bands, I may have not found my real aptitude and dream even till now. I thank them very much.

7. Bolbbalgan4

Yes, I know that this should be in the music part, but since this group has a certain larger significance in my life, I made it as an another individual section. Brief explanation can (which can be ignored) about this group is that they are a female duo indie group, producing pop-ish and R&B-ish (not strictly R&B, but certainly containing rhythms of it) music, and their name in Korean actually means 'Red Cheek Puberty' (not at all related with number 4; it's just an abbreviation related with its Korean pronunciation).
The significance of this group is that this group taught me the significance and importance of following emotion, following what you want to do. It was the first time ever that I fell in love with sort of a celebrity.
They are the first band that made me do illogical things. Maybe An Jiyeong, a lead vocalist of the group, was so pretty enough to stop my reasoning. It was the first time that I ever bought something useless. Yes, I once bought Guckkasten t-shirt but actually t-shirt is something useful. This time, it was different. I bought their debut EP, which contains only 6 songs, and 5 of them were in the regular LP album that I have bout long time ago. But, excusing that the picture in the album is their prettiest, I bought it. I also bought their official made / fanmade goods. Their official goods were only sold in few offline shops, and one weekend, I traveled about an hour and bought some notes, not telling my mother (who doesn't like buying useless things) (and she still thinks that I was in PC room with my friends that day). Recently, I changed my calender to fanmade picture calender, since I was inclined to do so.
After all those illogical behaviors, I rather found myself being happy, not guilty for wasting my time and money. Since then, I was a man of efficiency and frugality, and thought better logic and efficiency brings the better happiness to me. Though, what I learnt after doing all these illogical hardcore fan-thingy was different. Following what you love could make me extremely jubilated. I could do what I wanted to do, even though it seemed to be a bit illogical.
Maybe this experience led me to determine my dream to be a journalist, which is extremely hard to earn money, in other words, very stupid in the logic of efficiency. Those experiences about following my crazy fandom are another form of suggestion that I am most happy when I do what I love, which successfully defended my soul from interrupted by the concerns about possible shortcomings of my future dream selection.

P.S. Not to mention that one of my main inspiration is them, since I wrote certain numbers of minifictions inspired by their lyrics and most importantly, one of my life's motto is from their lyrics.
P.P.S. My laptop background, some pictures stuck in front of my desk, and a picture in my wallet is An Jiyeong.
P.P.P.S. I wouldn't have mentioned this fact if it's in front of all students since it is kind of a guilty pleasure to say that this band changed my life, but since vast majority of this class would know my love toward the band, I decided to put this important thing about me. (And this part made my list extremely long cuz I have too much to say)

8. Movies

The root of my love toward movies would be the television program (Go! Video Trip!) that introduced movies every Sunday noon. Our family always sat down aound the television, with jajangmyeon or ramen dishes in front of each, and had the most tranquil and happiest lunch of the week. After years of that weekly family event, I've naturally fell in love with the art of cinema. I have watched some amount of movies (though my profound interest in other hobbies, such as baseball, music, gaming, and wandering through Facebook sort of hindered the act of watching them as much as the other die-hard fans) to now, and I think I can write a certain quality reviews.
It would be more than happy if I can have a profession of writing journals about movies, and provide another family or a kid tranquil weekend noons like I had.

9. Sister

I have one younger sister, and my friends always say that our relationship is too peaceful and ideal to be called as a 'real siblings.' I actually can't understand why brothers and sisters fight, since we never wanted something in common or never felt that we were treated inequally. Maybe it's our mother's wiseness that taught us that she has different kind of a love and expectations to each of us.
My profile picture of Facebook is a picture that I took with my sister when we went to the concert of Brocolli You Too last summer. We goes to singing room together almost every time when I returns to home in weekends.
There is a certain obligation that mother gave me: that I have to take care of my sister after parents' death. I think I feel responsible about that and that's the reason I am not making conflicts with her.

10. Overwatch and Lucio

I love Overwatch. It's the first online game that I've ever played, and the first game to spend more than hundreds of hours. I like how the game is crafted, which has a great balance of individual ability and cooperation of all 6 teammates. I like how the tactics are built, and how a small action can cause to a cascade of a result.
My main character that I play is Lucio, who is a healer that requires effective communication of building the tactics through ordering in voice chat. Playing him also requires a fast ability to adapt in every second of change in combats. Some say healers are so boring since they are too passive, but I really enjoy playing healers since playing healers require another sense of activeness: an ability of a brain to pre-calculate each combat and order the teammates after exact analysis of each circumstance. That sort of play style fits me, I guess.

11. Review King Kim Review

He's the one that I admire as a kind of a role model.
He's a contents creator who's active in Facebook, with 475K followers in 'Review King Kim Review' page. He's the one who created the format of 'card news,' which is now prevalent in every part of online, from news and ads to governmental organizations.
What I respect about him is that he is a 'friendly neighborhood writer,' not a great intellect or philosopher. He uses all sort of colloquial languages, memes, and even swear words, but never loses his insight to the society. Instead of university that he didn't like, he made a new platform that everyone can enjoy: a review Facebook page. Writing something, including reviews, is what he wanted to do, what he loved, and he persued that passion.
His writings are never light, though, seeing his another Facebook page 'Never write these craps in Facebook.' He occasionally uploads her own short thoughts and even poems in that page, and I could know how sophisticated his concerns about his writings are.
I like his philosophy: to be colloquial, but not to be light; to have his own philosophy, but not to be a snob. One axiom of him that I have to put in my life's motto is 'Your opinion is valuable as much as my opinion is valuable.' Even though some people degrade him as merely an outsider who writes silly reviews, I regard him as the pioneer in new media field, who can be called as a modern day philosopher.

12. Snufkin

He is the best character among every characters that I read in novels. This small guy is called 'Snufkin' in Moomin Valley series.
He is a poet, whose real and only job is to sleep and eat without paying a single cent to Moomin family, and only singing some silly poems to Moomin family. He is maybe a clear evidence of harm of Finland's way too good welfare system.
I like him because I think that's the ideal form of artists or writers, and I hope I can live like him in the future.

13. Night Owl

I'm most productive from 11 PM to 3 AM (most alive even without caffeine). I hate to wake up early in the morning. My body functions better when I sleep 6 hours from 6 AM to 12 PM rather than 10 hours sleep from 10 PM to 8 AM. Because KMLA forces us to be a morning person, I always have that small disturbing migraine in my head, which runs away at about 10 PM in the night.

14. Arsenal

I like teams that lack something, but still is beautiful. Arsenal perfectly fits the definition. They lack trophies and wins and maybe a competent manager and admnistration, but still they can play a beautiful game.
I feel sympathy and catharsis when they play, since maybe every fan knows that they lack something, but they try to play under their own philosophy of 'art soccer.' I hate teams, such as the one with ugly blue Yokohama something printed on their jersey, or managers, such as the one who's not 'special' now, whose philosophy is winning. I want my team to give enjoyment, not some choking feeling from ten defenders. I want my team to play for audiences, not only for winning a game. When a goal is made by perfect, beutiful passes, that's the moment when I feel happy to be an Arsenal fan.

15. No Popularity Human

Never ever been any romantic or any close relationship with anyone.
I now became enjoying a sort of a freedom of being a 'No Popularity Human'

16. Humanities on Bullshit
17. Decorating my dorm room seat

I'm sure that my dorm room seat would be the fanciest one in KMLA.
I spent about 2-3 self study periods to decorate this seat.

18. Psychedelic
19. La La Land
20. Japanese Novels
21. Goyang city
22. Espresso
23. Woo Won Jae
24. Short Stories / Minifictions
25. Music Albums
26. Correct Korean Grammer / Spelling
27. Agnostic
28. Professional Procrastinator
29. Too Much Talker

Maybe you've noticed this at this point, but I can't stop myself from talking what I adore.

30. Running away from home

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